Missing the Illusion

I am feeling,
That everything is illusion
I am trapped in a physical sensation
Which I second guess
All that which I have ever thought, is

And in my doubting
I find my way
To the center
Of a creation
That I have found myself in

I am missing
Myself, somewhere along the way
I have missed something
And it

I will never get it back
I keep searching, and searching and searching
That which I miss, 
Illudes me

I am trapped in the illusion
That I am missing something
The first place.